The Weight Loss Journey

Where to start. I clearly remember the first time I was told I needed to lose weight. I was in sixth grade. I cried for what seemed like forever. Since that fateful day I have gained and lost more weight than I can possibly calculate. The ironic thing was that from sixth grade until after college I was never significantly overweight. It wasn't until I was married and my thyroid stopped working that I became overweight. I sure would have liked to have enjoyed the 11 years that I only imagined that I was overweight. The last 17 years have been filled with dieting, not dieting...gaining and losing....over and over. I am worn out from worrying about it. At some point I just gave up thinking I could ever become as "overweight" as I was before my thyroid stopped working. Though to be honest my thyroid is only one factor in my weight battle. I know that quitting smoking, having three kids, suffering from occasional bouts of depression, and dealing with my husbands deployments, and regular old stress contributes to the problem. Oh yeah, I also eat too much. Once again, I am trying to eat more sensibly and exercise more. I just feel defeated before I even begin. Not an auspicious way to start a diet. I am sick to death of dieting but I haven't much choice. I am once again at what I consider to be maximum density. It's time to do something. Wish me luck, I need all the help I can get.